Awakening

Yesterday, while I was at work, I decided that  I wanted to listen to the talks given in the women's session of General Conference.  It was one of the strangest experiences I've ever had with General Conference.  From the point of middle school up until last October I have always looked forward to General Conference for guidance and spiritual reassurance, and I've never been disappointed.

Before I go further, let me just explain that General Conference is a world-wide broadcast for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.  It happens twice a year, once in October and once in April.  The leaders of the church spend months preparing speeches that they feel will be relevant and comforting to the members of the church throughout the world.  

Anywho, while I was listening to the women's session there were a lot of talks focused on the LDS church's definition of the family, you know the whole mom + dad + 4 to 12 children.  I've heard this before, but I while listening, I realized that I  was actually disagreeing with things I was hearing, which I knew was a thing, but I had never realized this while listening to Conference.  

I honestly don't know why this moment was such a big deal to me, because I've known for a while that I don't agree with all of the LDS doctrine, but in that moment as I was listening to it in a setting that had always been a source of comfort, it was more real that I have major differences in opinion with the church.