Not Alone.

I've been reflecting a lot lately on my path as a gay Mormon, and I've realized that I need to address something.  The biggest thing that has brought me peace and helped me accept and love who I am is an assurance that I am not alone.  There are other people out there who have similar struggles, feelings, and ideas.
I don't want to sound preachy, or cliche, or anything like that, I just want anyone who reads this who might be in a similar position to know that you are not alone.  All of us have our own very personal experiences, that no one else can really understand.  However, even while I say that, there are some very real feelings that come when someone has to come to terms with being gay and being Mormon.  There's this feeling of self-loathing that comes, because you're whole life you've been taught that homosexuality is an abomination, and as hard as you try, it doesn't go away.  There's a feeling of isolation, because you have to watch everyone around you focus on marriage and family-rearing, and you realize that that might not ever be an option for you.  There's constant fear, because sometimes people will turn their backs on you, and that hurts.  There's loneliness, because there's the dream of having a real love in your life, but a fear that it will never actually happen.
Know that you aren't alone.  It might seem like it right now, but hold on, because there is an army of us, and we are in this together.

Here are some resources that could help:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/35272941983/ - This is a facebook group called Affirmation.  It's for people in the LGBT community who have varying relationships with the LDS church.  You have to request to become a member, but the people here are accepting of everyone, no matter how firmly you might be trying to be Mormon.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/NorthStarMembership/ - This is a facebook group called North Star.  It's a lot more of the LDS route.  They encourage their members to stay celibate or work toward marrying a woman.  You also have to request to become a member of the group here, and they have a list of rules that they expect their members should live up to.  It's pretty easy to find the rules, and if you agree, then you can send a request to join.